We won't be raped, we won't be scarred like that...

Two lines of a song are ringing in my head, again and again and again….

“hey, now we won’t be raped,
hey, now we won’t be scarred like that!
hey, now we won’t be raped,
hey, now we won’t be scarred like that!”

I think I have my last bit of sanity abandoning me. My mood swings are worse then ever. I am drinking like fish these day. I am seeing all people in my dreams, I never wanna see again. I stay in this closed room doing nothing but pretending to read something. My mind is not here, my mind is not anywhere. I am angry and frustrated inside. I feel as if I am stuck in life for rest of my life. I want to let my day pass in surreal daze. Maybe I should try marijuana; and yet on second thought, I don’t wanna give into insanity that easy.

I skipped Iron Maiden and I can’t believe that I didn’t go for that show. :(

Every single day I dream of these people who made my life worth living once upon a time but when I get up, I am just surrounded by these silent walls. I have a feeling even they are not friendly!

And yet..
hey, now we won’t be raped; hey, now we won’t be scarred like that….

* Song: Live - Selling The Drama