Hope that died in vain!

“I have no regrets, and yet it’s time to forget…”

Yes, me; it’s time. Somehow, I couldn’t not burn it in, once again and yet it just setteled in. Secluded mind, turning nothing but more numb than ever. Thats good though, as it would take a LOT more than just a numb mind to go through this.

Scared of each passing day, finally most awaited apocalypse is here!! Go me, shoot yourself! :D Or like always, we could jeer by cheer!
Cheers to life that will eventually end.
Cheers to love that will never die.
Cheers to hope that died away anyway.
Cheers to god, who had his fun.
Cheers to destiny, who never ceased to mock.
Cheers to me, who still has to live through it.

Finally, life would be about me. And yet, today morning when I got up and thought that what I would want to do with my life? Void prevailed! Nothing feels more infuriating, then finding oneself, devoid of any reason to live. And yet, we just drag our remains along, to wherever we may be pushed!

[Song in ears:: The day it rained forever - Aurora :: Feeling :: Fighting tears, which may burst out any moment now]
Dear blog, I am back. And am back, not to go away anymore. All this incessant hate inside, would need a way out, a lot more than just “often”. I hate this world. I truly do. And then if there is anything that I hate more than that, then it must be “Me”.

Just keep vodka off my hands… though I know, in coming days, I won’t keep my hands off it. <sly>

Walls of time in my mind,
Incarcerating what I have to say.
Frigid cold white heart,
Enslaving love night and day!
Besotted weary eyes,
Hide the sorrow and pain.
Jeeringly contrived smile,
For hopes that died in vain.

Why do you have to come, if you know, that you have to go. Why you have to promise, if you’ll break it anyway. Why do you have to smile, when it’s your back that I’ll look at for rest of my life. Fuck you.

I hate you. And, today I mean it.