Anniversary of decay....

I have never been good with calender dates, especially when, all of them look same to me. What difference has anything made ever… i am still the same. Broken, cramped, fake-smiled and “decaying” … [Song:: Pixies blasting in ears still with - where’s my mind!! and that is exactly how i feel!]

13th August.. the aniversary of Decay… let me ridicule myself by repeating it once more in my head! It sure sounds funny, and yet why do i feel eyes moisting up and heart bleeding.
don’t rem… how many years it’s been, 2 or 3 or less or more… don’t want to know..
it’s simple addition anyway.. and thats all i would have needed to learn when i was kid. Just that my parents were moron enough to teach me other things, which make me feel literate, with nothing of practical usability. Probably everyone except my parents were right.. it’s the smell of minted coins and not printed books, that drives this world!
Only if i would have known earlier.

today i feel heartless and broken, just that my mind seem resolved enough to not show it…
[Song :: Speed of sound - Coldplay :: need i say again].

i feel, that i should be obliged to write something in tribute to the “decaying me”… what fucking irony… anyway here is goes..

“I hate you.. and this is one of those days…. Definitly”]

If i could roll back time, instead of relishing those moments i would rather make sure that i never met you.
[Song:: Miracle Drug-U2 :: apathy for myself]

Probably someday, when u stumble on this blog [which i think is a far fetched idea, until i tell u about it.. ]… know this is the irrational side i told u about.
I have been talking to you for last few days in my head.

[i don’t make sense right now..do i?]
it doesnt matter anyway… who would read it???

Fuck you once again….
because people SUCK anyway...